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Monday, August 4, 2008

Flying Unbalanced

I am struggling to find the balance in my life. Okay, not really. I just say it a lot thinking that one day I might believe it and actually try it. Right now, my life feels so one sided. I do not think I even know what a balanced life feels like. I think my entire life I have been in a perpetual state of multi-tasking.

I do not feel like I have accomplished anything unless I have done at least four things at one time. I joking tell people that I can do six things at once, but have trouble with the seventh. Right now I am on number eight, I think. Really not sure. Really not sure what drives me to go. I go bigger and better after each success and each failure.

I do not stop. Already I am thinking about what to do after I get my PhD. The target date for that is December 2010. Yes, I know I have time, but I feel the need to be ready. To be ready for the next thing. And of course the next thing has to be bigger and better (and hopefully cheaper). I found these quotes on balance that really spoke to me.

I always try to balance the light with the heavy-- a few tears of spirit, in with the sequins and the fringes

Those who have one foot in the canoe, and one foot in the boat are going to fall into the river.
~ Native American Proverb

I like the image of one foot in the canoe and one in the boat. That is me. Are you struggling with balance? Do you have the tools to get your life under control? If so, kindly share them with me. If not, join me on my journey.


Cookie said...

Beloved D,
I pray you do not fall into your river.
I used to spin about like a tempest in a teapot and then thru a series of events in my life i realized if I was doing 4 things at once in my life at any one time I was doing 5 things badly or incompltely. And I was never taking the time to stop and smell the roses. Hech, I did not know there were roses. Now I do only 2 things or less at a time and life is better... And now I know that those pretty pink or red bloby things outside my window as I am zipping by are roses, and any day now I am going to smell one.
Bless you today and many thanks for sharing your heart,

doretha said...

I have learned the lesson about smelling the roses. I have run through most of my life trying to get to the next stop only to try to get to the next one. I have missed out on so much. Now, I really try to live in the moment and to notice things and people. I try not to be is such a hurry to get to the next stop, it will be there when I get there. That is not to say that I do not plan. I just do not allow my plan to encompass my entire life. I am a work in progress!