Flying doing what I need to do

I need to do something. I know it. And if I don't do it I will not reap the benefits. It is not a done deal, but it is a strong potential and I need all of the strong potentials that I can get right now. Strong potentials can turn into real things. Not always, but many many times. But not if I do not take that step forward towards it. 

James Prichett

What am I afraid of? People knowing my stuff. People thinking that I do not value where I am now. That I do not value what I do now. Because I do. I always will. I just like to be privately optimistic. But my hand is being forced. I need to be comfortable. I am not doing well being this uncomfortable. When I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel. When I have trouble asking for help because it seems like a never ending cycle. It has to get better. I have to make it better. 

So I have to try. I have to allow some people to know my stuff because that is the only way this one works out or has the potential to work out.  It's all part of God's plan. It is certainly not mine. 

If I had my way life would be easier for all of us. But then I guess we would miss some lessons. And maybe the lessons we learn in despair are the ones that save us in the end.