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Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Flying past worry

The other day I could not spray my windshield with fluid. I thought it was because the reservoir was empty. I worried about filling it because I have barely looked under the hood of this car. And for some reason I was afraid to ask for help. I am not sure why since I am constantly telling people that we are not in this alone. Yet, I allowed myself to suffer alone.

Apparently while running 18 miles my defenses were down because I asked the women who were running with me if they knew how to fill the wiper reservoir. They did and after buying wiper fluid we filled it. I was so relieved.

However, that did not solve my problem. Still nothing came out of the sprayer nozzles. I barely slept imagining that all sorts of things were wrong. That I would be spending more money that I did not have. I was on the verge of tears. 

Then clarity came during yoga. I drove to the new Firestone car care place that I discovered while on my 18 mile run. I explained to the service tech my issue and also asked for new wiper blades. He explained to me that oftentimes the sprayer nozzles are broken and in that case I will have to go back to the dealer. Dollar signs were dancing in front of my eyes. He must have seen them because he said that they would blow air through the system and that might solve the problem. I nodded fighting back anxiety. 

About 15 minutes later I had my car back with new wiper blades and a working spray reservoir. I was worrying for nothing which is often the case. Even though I know this, I am sure it will happen again.
Worry is a cycle of inefficient thoughts whirling around a center of fear. 

Corrie Ten Boom

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