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Thursday, December 18, 2008

Flying timidly

I have been really struggling with one of my instructors. I had her for my very first class and her critique of my writing reduced me to tears. I vowed to never have her as an instructor ever again. I succeeded until it was time for the two huge research projects. She is my mentor. Due to this fact, I have been seriously procrastinating in completing my work. Well, now I have run out of classes and have to face her.

I am trying to change my attitude about this whole thing. It does not help that NONE of my other instructors had issues with my writing. Right now I have a 3.7 GPA. So, it is difficult for me to appreciate her discussion of my work. I keep telling myself that if I can get past her, I can get past anyone. I keep saying that she is good for me, this is making my writing stronger. I am really not doing a good job of convincing myself. At some point enough has got to be enough. The funny thing is that she told another student to contact me because I was a good writer. I asked the guy if he was sure she said ME. He was sure. She said far worse things about his writing. Anyway, I am at it again. The goal is to finish this research paper by January 31st and begin the next one. After that it is dissertation time.

The morale of this story is to keep trying and I will. I have come too far to quit. I still need the prayers and support from everywhere. This is not going to be easy.