Flying goal-less (re-post)

I recently reached one of my goals. Now I have to decide what to do next. One option was to continue doing what I am doing now until the end of the year and decide then. That sounds appealing because that means that I can coast along not thinking about doing anything. That is not practical because I always have goals. I always know what I want to do next. I am not sure I can allow myself to have a goal of not having a goal. But isn't that a goal? Couldn't I spin it and say that I am taking a break and will let things marinate in my head until the first of the year? That sounds like a very long time not to do anything.

But is it really not doing anything? I will maintain my current level and maybe surpass my goal. I just won't make any final decisions until later. I don't know. I spent most of my seven mile run on Sunday trying to figure out how make a goal of not having a goal work. Yes, the diversion was great, but I still have not figured it out yet.

I recently wrote about committing to the process, not the outcome. I agree with that, but I think I am still supposed to have a desired outcome. I am supposed to strive to reach it while enjoying the journey. Isn't that what I said?

Even high achievers are allowed to take a break every once in a while, right? I am giving myself permission to flounder. Not endlessly, just for a few more hours. I will have a conversation later this afternoon with a professional to help me decide what my next goal with be. I will remain temporarily goal-less until then. That is my short term goal. See? I knew I could not be without a goal for long!

You have to know what you want to get.

Gertrude Stein

You've got to be very careful if you don't know where you are going, because you might not get there.

Yogi Berra